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Jun 24, 2022Liked by Mark Gilman

Nope you can't. I wanted to quit drinking for all the noble reasons except the one fact that I really did like drinking. a lot.. Until I faced that one down, I wasn't fully on board with healing my spirit (or my liver)

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Beautiful, Mark! Taking responsibility for addressing our problems feels like an act of faith in itself.

This also reminds me of a Maya Angelou quote I read once: “Do the best you can until you know better. Then, once you know better… do better.”

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Mark, I can relate to what you write in so many ways. I am 58 years old .. never been diagnosed with ADHD, but I have characteristics like the ones you described. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression and I take medication. Medication really made a difference for me, but then it was time to do the work--to get organization (that was a big one-that I work on every damn day), and I've gotten help with organization through many of the self-help things I've read and I also have a housekeeper. I call her my personal assistant. Having Christina makes my life so much easier. And, then there was more-learning to be "careful in conversation"--meaning not blurting things out for me. That was a hard one and an ego blow because I thought what I was saying was so creative, inspirational, funny, honest. I thought I was so witty.

What was I saying/writing? Thanks. I am just tired right now-it is very hot here and I am charging my phone. I failed to charge my phone last night. Well, instead of deleting this and going back for an INFJ post-I'll stick with this one. Still a hot mess and in south Georgia the mess is really not today.

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It takes courage to want to change. Obviously you have it. Beautifully written!

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